relentless rantings require resonance

A lot of whining and complaining. Some very interesting points. Ridiculous amounts of gushing about my son. Yup, that about sums it up.

Monday, October 09, 2006


The most significant event of my life, up to this point, is going to occur on Friday. I've been pretty nonchalant about the whole thing. I've had to be. I've had so much going on in my life that I haven't felt justified in devoting any time to being excited about it.
Today, as I was ordering my lunch, one of the chefs at the school cafe asked me how school was treating me. I told him that schools has been fine, it's everything else in my life that is affecting me. Then I said, "I'm getting married on Friday." Wow. That one statement was enough to trigger all the excitement. I felt so emotional after saying that one simple sentence that I had to choke back tears.

I am getting married on Friday.

I've almost been treating this like it is a non-event. It's not. I feel like there are some people close to me that are treating it like a non-event as well. I don't know why they are doing that. Maybe it's because of the way that I've been treating it. Maybe it's because they don't want to make a big deal about it. There are so many factors that could come into play. They're actions promoting the "non-event" status makes me feel sad. Sad that my biggest event ever is being treated as if it were no more than a weekend BBQ.

I'm getting married on Friday. That's a pretty big event.